July 29, 2009

Getting focus back, now so panicky or out of control. Still functioning on limited sleep with some difficulty - basically driving is hard. Still feeling fidgety, but it is so unbearable. Some impulsive eating. Not feeling much tonight, boredom, still ready for a break. Wish everything would disappear. Ready for school to be done... Not looking forward to going back. Ready to quit. Just wanna sleep. I feel like I'm putting on a play, pretending to everyone that everything is good, positive... inside I'm twisted. I can pull it together. I have to.